Happy New year, though i am late as Always as its the 10th today and mind it as its around 2 Am or probably would be 3 by the time i end up writing this post and Guess What ? I have an Economics 1st year exam Tomorrow which i have been giving from the past 4 years and haven’t cleared even once 
what ads on to the Spice is that i just finished watching UDAAN .
Salla 9 baje se neend aa rahi thi, Movie chalna start hui toh bus Neend gayab anyway i am here to just Vent Out few of the unrealistic material going Inside and Around, Effort After Effort and Again a New Benegging, kya re begenning ke spelling bhi spell check se dekhni padh rahi hai anyway where was i? ooh yea… so i was saying that ki bahut koshish kari, even kar raha hoon a lot of things are going inside the HEAD and a Lot means a LOT but nothing never productive ever happens ? I know you have the answer, ke ek cheez karo But wish ke voh itna asaan hota.
Wish if it was so simple to see Inside ourselves So Deep inside so that we really get to know what we are here for, time is passing ever minute and every second, Damp ! A Lot of frustration builds up all the Time, But life is after all about the questions and you are here to give the Answers at lest its better than to forcefully study for a sucky chemistry or a physics exam( Sheeeeeet i still remember chemistry mam’s face, she was shit scary and a real torture, wish she was a little understanding and happy with her life or now i understand the real problem probably her husband never sati****d her, Double lol )
Sometimes life is a Pain but only when you once get the relief only then you value it.
Tonight i am also here to confess that i am not a Bright Student nor will i ever be and nor do i intend to study that something that i would never understand as i Don’t Like Mugging up, Not Good in Studies, Have tooti Footi English, Not so better than the ordinary guys around, Have always done what my parents wanted me to do, probably naa not what my parents wanted me to do, but yeah what the Society would accept see me do . I Don’t know why do every student have to be the brightest in the class? Why everyone has to be in S.t Stephens or Venky or Xaviers or bloody IIm’s and yes how can i forget the brainy IIT’s who have a great Alumni and all those stupid geeks love to flaunt that name thought out their life ? Why do every one has to Study Maths or take Commerce or Science even when they Don’t know what would with that subject, Why were we just taught Chemistry, was it just about mixing H2So4 with some bloody sulphuric acid or probably it is called that shit ? Wish if Education REALLY HAD A MEANING and Every teacher took there subject enjoyably and wish all of them Had The Real Passion for there Subject, Wish they would have done their work with so much passion and not working like machines and got Stick to that ONE Job and Scared throughout their life of being FIRED.
Why Don’t people understand that if things are done FROM the HEART they really leave an Impact and doing things just for the sake of it is not good, Be it Anything in life. Trust me Anything, We and I need to get the basics Right. Our life is just like a person whose legs have been cut and he lives his life with them without even complaining. I Don’t know what is exactly but yes Something is Surely Missing.
I can experience the High of everything being so Good Around, I wish if people were more understanding and wish if more people could connect to the Heart, its so pure so Magical feels like a dream coming true ^So silent ^ So clean ^So much freedom of thoughts, Its about connecting with the Soul deep inside, the power of purity, excellent magical words, a place where i have been, a paradise indeed. just love it to the core, i believe that this kind off a place exists and will remain to exist but it isnt easily access-able to realize it.
So finally its 3 am, Time to Wrap up salla kal exam bhi toh hai yaar BC last exam hai Deke khatam he karte hai salle ko.
I have a Hope and a Wish, That i just wish to do that which would keep me happy through out My Life and i wish that i am able to figure that out soon, I wish the same for the people around too, Please Pray for it to Happen, Amen !
I Love You
Peace Fly
